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This is a comment that I posted on Ma'am's blog, and I thought it would be a good thing to post here. Realizations and stuff...:P

"Even if it did add to the many things I had to do, I have to admit that I had fun writing the reflection paper. In fact, Ma'am, on the weekend that I did the paper I prioritized it over the other things I had to do. I mean, I can't force myself to do something when my mind and my heart is set on doing something else, can I?

So my paper didn't conclude that well... We all have writer's block sometimes, and during the time I was ending my paper that was when every other thing I had to accomplish just seemed to pile one on top of another. I guess the realization that I had so much more to do began to sink in, and the thoughts in my mind just swirled around and I couldn't write right anymore.

But even if I know it didn't end well, getting the worksheets answered by my blockmates really made me feel good about myself. Not only did I hear good things (amidst the bad, of course) about my writing, but knowing that I somehow affected them by making them also think of their own lives and the memories they have shared with their loved ones made everything worth it. I felt different from the Cydelle that I usually am, the one who is always in the background, hardly saying anything to anyone outside of the group I am usually with.

I don't know if others agree or disagree with me on this one, but I think En12 has helped me love R39 more, and having you as our teacher, someone we can laugh with and trust helped so much in it. I know that I don't talk all that much with my blockmates, and I mainly just keep to myself and my group (Nixxie, Ana, etc.), but checking their reflection papers made me feel in a way "closer" to them, since I read a part of their life, even though I don't know who the other two who's papers I checked were.

If there was one thing that I regret this year (not just this semester), it is that I did not make any effort to get to know the others in my block. It's really frustrating, because only today did I learn of how fun my blockmates can be. Only today did I see what kinds of persons they are, and it makes me really sad that I've discovered that only now when the year is going to end. I got that from what I've read of their blogs, which is why I am also thankful for this requirement.

I really love the idea of the block party, and I hope to redeem myself when this time comes. I hope I can finally get to know those I didn't bother talking to. I know it's a little too late, but still it's better late than never, right?"