Iyakin na si Cy

For some reason, I've been crying a lot lately. And I cry in front of other people now, too. I think I must have cried a lot more times from May2005-May2006 than I did for the past four years of high school.

Now, you people from AC who say I have a heart of stone because I "never" cry during our retreats... You can take that back now. Gosh... If you could see me now... You'd be so schocked.

Hmmm... Am I just releasing all that pent up anger/sadness/whatever emotion it is I'm hiding inside? Maybe. Dunno. But one thing's for certain... It feels so good to be able to cry knowing that someone's there to comfort you.

Yes, I still see crying in front of other people as a weakness on my part. If I could, I would keep my crying to myself in my room in my house. As it is, I cannot. And I just find that there are people I can trust enough to cry in front of them, that even if I want to stop, I still go on crying.

But damn... I just hate it when you're leaning on someone while crying and that someone just HAS to stroke your back to comfort you. That even if you tell that person not to, he/she just has to do that. Not that I don't appreciate it, but that certain act just makes me want to cry a lot more, which I don't want to do...

Gah... I wet your shirt again with my tears... That's the second time.:P Thanks.

Oh oh oh! Can I just share... It feels good to have someone hug you when you're crying.:D I'm liking the feeling, it makes me want to just let everything go and CRY AND CRY AND CRY SOME MORE.

Hahaha!